When people talking about future, "I don't know" whispered in my heart. I know, some of you might want to be a big manager, having big houses, or getting some stuff that you don't have it anymore.
For me, I just want to know the world better. Finding new places, discover human behavior. So i just made my final decision. I want to save money. To go around the world. To see how beautiful God's creation. Lets make another good year. Hope so. Pray for me :-)
So right now is 11.09pm and i'm still awake. Yes, i drink lotssa coffee these days. So, i can't sleep early anymore. Just in case i am damn tired. People would tease me, 'Eh banyak you punye duit hari2 minum coffee?" No lah. Its kind of ketagih. Addict you know~~ ADDICTED!
Nahhh....
Okay, lets talk about how to be happy anyway. Nice topic right? So what will you do if you feels sad or you might want to go die and let go off your problems.
1) First of all, you need to think other people conditions. People who are thousand times unfortunate than you. Will they be able to eat? Will they be able to sleep in comfy bed? Will they be able to buy nice dress and nice phone? Yes. Yes. Yes. You need to think about them and praise to God if you being able to do all these thing.
2) Find lotssa friends. Yes. Friends. I know some of you didn't have much friends, but believe me. If you find the best one, don't you ever try to let them go. Make them as your own family. Lend you ears to them if they have any problems, and they will do the same things. And if, he or she is not your close friends, let yourself be in their shoes. Maybe they need someone like you. Befriend with humans guys. Allah encourage us to close up our silaturahim. If you follow this, insyaAllah God promise you something better in future.
3) Turn the radio on loudest in your car. Haha! I did that! Yes, find the good beat one, make the volume loudest and scream your lung out. And guys guys guys! If you want a good mood in the morning, lower down your tingkap kete and feel the morning breeze. I swear you feel AWESOME!
4) Shopping. This is one of my favorite yaww. Buy all things you desire. Buyyyy!!!!
5) Drink a coffee. Try it.
Okay, last but not least, find the people who makes you happy :-)
I'm not wearing this outfit since such a long time. So whenever i think i A LIL BIT SLIM, i'm gonna wear it. Haha. So guys, what are you doing today, on Sunday? I have to be more careful on things, stuff or what during these two months. I don't want my sister to be worry about me. Yes, she is doing her haji right now. Lets pray for her and husband. This pain is killing me right now. God, i have to be strong and tough. It appears nowhere. I don't know. I keep dreaming recently and i don't know what it meant. I just feel like the soul been fade away. I hate this kind of situation. Its feels like you want to ride that cool and fun roller-coaster, but you just can't. You just can see it without even dare to buy the ticket. YOU JUST CAN'T. It is a reason that everyone can't explained.
Ok, look what i've done with my salary? I've bought this awesome cd. I tell you guys. You can hear it somewhere on the internet. I suggest you to hear some of the song like Milestone Moon, Anchor and Siboh Kitak Nangis. Its very nice songs indeed.
So i don't buy this outfit. haha!! I just want to post it here. It costs RM 49.90 and you can get it at Reject Shop outlet somewhere in Kuantan, or you own place. Guys, did you know about LOOKBOOK ? I started to view this website since 2 years ago. This cool website inspired me much because you can see lots of people around the world posting their own sense of fashion. And guess what, Yuna was also putting her outfit there. Heh heh heh :-) I am looking for blazer actually, but still havent find it. Once i make it, i'll show it here ok!
Got to go,
Ain
p/s : Oh! Today i believe was a sad day indeed. As you know, Steve Jobs passed away today and we should be very thankful for his innovation in making better world.
How is it? What do you think about my new layout. Don't ask why it is white in color.
#justsoyouknow , i love white. Yes. My favorite color is white. I've put some other stuffs at the sidebar as you can see. Oh! You can follow my blog by email. Type your email there, and once my blog updated, it will send to you directly! Easy, right? *i believe only Rita is my loyal reader*
So guys, could you please help me? i want a new laptop. I am dying for it. I'm just too bored being at home without it. And err, i am in love with pc actually. PC ok.
Hi everyone! So, i steal some time to update this blog from my office. Shh ! Don't tell anyone. Tee hee
Guys, i'm so bored working here. Some stuff was like shit. Especially the people. Not all, but some. Eh, i forgot to tell you that I've joined Keyboard class at Yamaha Music School. The class was awesome. I learned it individually and the teacher, Dianne is sooooooo patience. Haha, my brain is soo slow! But i love every single note. urm, there are semibreve, crochet, minim and quaver!
At least i have something to do right? I am aiming for Canon DSLR and a laptop by next year. So lets start saving!!! Yeah!!
I'm so jealous with new look of blogger! how can you do this to me! i think i need a lappy now! urgh!
So overall, this look is quite modern, but i think they should add more font, or animation. Hee, right?
Hey how are you guys? Me, become more fat instead of trying to control eating. What do we expect, RAYA everyone, RAYA !!!! Now i'm staying at my sis house, Indera Mahkota. She had her Raya Openhouse yesterday and i have to help her. Damn, so many people came and Alhamdulillah, the food was quite enough. Sis talked about getting catering services next year, but the difference is RM500! So why don't we just make it by our own? The more the merrier right? So this weekend was so valuable for me. Helping, laughing with siblings can never be compared to anything else.
Talking about lappy, i think my life worth than before. Why? Because when you don't have that thing, you tend to find people, making something that is more beneficial. Believe me guys. Try it. Please waste your time wisely. Hang out, and doing something cool. Recently, i went out with my boys and they playing bowling. Seriously i hate bowling and i do not understand why people are so excited about throwing the ball??? No, it is my mistake. I find happiness in there. I need to try it soon. Soon guys. Soon.
Honestly, it is not easy to forget that person. But at least, i'm trying. So proud of me. Hee
Its been a long long time since i have no lappy. I tell you guys a little secret where you only know it here.
Yes, on my blog.
Did you ever feel you have to let go your shadow? You will never dare think about it rite?
Love always make me happy besides of all these messy. He is the only person that can make my heart beat faster. When he sit next to me, i think i don't need anything else. I just need him to listen all my happiness, or sadness even madness. But, i am not really sure with this kind of thinking, feeling. Did he feel the same way? So i decided to tell everything that i felt. "I am so sorry if the way i treat make you feel like this". Do you get it? I don't need to explain further right? So, God made a day which i have to go out from this feeling. I am not sure whether it takes 1 day, 1 year or even 10 years to swept it off.
I know its been a long time i didn't put something to share.
My apology, i lost my lappy. I gave it to my nephew so that he can finish up his assignment and do well in study. Arghhh,, i miss soo much that lappy. All pictures or valuable files in there. You know what, i've deleted them all. I hope nephew can give good result as valuable as my treasure in the lappy.
Oh! Selamat berpuasa to all of you.
Please give some space for yourself to do all ibadah and hoping we all tabah dalam amalan puasa.
I suppose to publish this post yesterday. But the emotion take over me.
So this is the story about the person whom i love to death and im gonna share with you guys every single day.
Yesterday, 27th June 2011.
I've received a call from my sister telling that my mom need to be injected with insulin everyday replacing some of the medicines.
sis : boleh x?
me : boleh.
i can say 'boleh' 1000times for my mom and my family. Yesterday was a new day indeed where i need to learn to inject my mom and it was freaking sad. I have to be strong instead of feeling scared.
I woke up as usual today and i heard she's preparing tea. I thought it just a normal routine but then i turned to her face and she looked so pale. God, i'm already feeling scared! Then she told me maybe, the insulin affected her body much and she need to eat something sweet. After 30 minutes, she looked normal and i have to give her the insulin. Yesterday she took 6 scale of the insulin and she already feeling weak. I don't know what going to happen today because she's having 10 scale on the morning side.
:(
. mom looked fine at the end of the day but keep telling that shes hungry coz limiting her to eat something sweet.
I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think
I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have
Chorus:
At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Trying to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon
I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say
I've gone mad
Yeah
I've gone mad
But they don't know
what I know
Cause when the
sun goes down
someone's talking back
Yeah
They're talking back
At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Trying to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon
Do you ever hear me calling?
Cause every night
I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon
I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I'm sick looking for a reason which still unsure it is exist or not. I've been treated like this once, and God thanks give me some more. You just wanna remind me about human/people right? About how can you take something that we'll never expect or think.
But for our friendship, and what that people have done to me is not meant to be hated. I just wanna try everyday making us like before.
I took my handphone and saw 3 missed called from anonymous. And bloody hell, all my numbers in my old hp deleted just like that. I saved the number mostly in the hp, not the simcard. Silly me. Now, i am scared with those anonymous.
Then i give him/her a call.
Me : Ada call number saya ke tadi? Anonymous : Err, ...What's your name? Me : (Alamak, kena speaking ke..aku dah lama tak speaking ni..) Nurul Ain. Anonymous : Hi Nurul Ain, I'm calling from Malay-Sino Chemical bla bla bla..You have applied for HR Executive/Officer right? Me : Sorry, from where? (Dush dush!) I've applied too many jobs, so i can't remember which one it is. (Sangat bodoh okay) Anonymous: Ohh, you have applied so many jobs ya. (Sounds menganjing kan??) Do you interested to come to interview? Me : hah, YES! Anonymous : Where you living right now? Me : Cherating. Anonymous : Cherating. Its not far with Kemaman right? So, are familiar with Kemaman's Road? Me : Not so familiar. (Me jawab nak tak nak je) Anonymous : Ok, So can we meet up on Wednesday? Coz i have to come along from Ipoh. Are you working right now? Me : Yeah. Anonymous : So, can we meet after 5..530pm should be okay. Can you come at 530pm? Me : Yeah, sure. No problem (I have to ponteng keje la weyhhh) Okay thank you.
Guys, i tell you what. I really want this job. It's my dream to work in HR Team. Could you please pray for me?
Again, sorry. Yeah. I am quite boring now. I'm listening to Pesawat - Excuse Me. It's been a long time i didn't into indie's music. Like i said before. I lost my soul. I'm gonna have it back. Really.
Yesterday was a big day for my bestie, Anisah Ahmad a.k.a Cah. She's so adorable and i am jealous-ing!!!!!
See, how beautiful you are.
Cah and her husband.
Thanks for everything :)
Sorry for me terselit everywhere. Hehe. Congratulations to my good friend, Cah. Hoping you will live happily ever after.
Another post in this month. I guess i am overly posting something right? Haha, i just don't know. I love blogging. (I know no one read my blog!, who cares?). For me, blogging is a kind of place, where you want to throw out your TALKS or IDEAS or might be other STUFF. So people, what's your plan today? Me? As usual, on this Sunday, i'll go to my sis's house to refill my mom's medicine. I have no plan to go out if my money is out!!! THATS the main reason actually!
Huh, i miss camera recently. I forgot to bring it if i go out. I wonder i left my soul behind. Yes, i am a camera - woman. No, camera-girl? More young i think? hehe. I believe Mr. Smena and Ms. Fisheye looks pity. I left them since 11 months. I think i should make them alive again. Yes i should.
Ms. Fisheye 2
Mr. Smena
I am looking forward on saving money to buy a DSLR. Not a big one, but just a simple one. I don't know which one i should pick, i find out later. Guys, guys guys! Have you heard about SONY BLOGGIE?
SONY BLOGGIE
Yeahhh...this one..Cool rite. but the screen just too small. But the function is quite awesome. I know but this actually from TV. One of the coolest function is the camera can take picture with 360degree view!!!!
Yeah i believe this life is soo much complicated. Eh, i've mumbling about my tepuk-sebelah-tangan for almost 1 year rite? I just don't know lar guys.
This kind of feeling is hurting me. I always trying to forget him, but the more i did, and even more i will remember him. Am i his tulang rusuk kiri or something? I just can't stop thinking about him.
So guys, how's your day? Been like me? Mintak jauh lah kan? Haha!
Alrite, alrite. I am so fucking excited for this coming June. Guess what, my besties going to married!!
For Cah, (If you read my blog - i believe you're not!) Cah, congratulations for this 4th june. I am so happy for you. Please don't even try to forget our memories. I know been a wife and have our own family is different thing before. You going to barely contact us, talking with us indeed. But, i will try to make it up as possible. I love you and thanks to God giving me a bestie that never tried to hurt me :)
For Noraini, (i will always remember you :) Noraini, you know what, you're one of my bestie that i ever had. You know what i love and like. I know, you know my heart better than me rite? Congratulations on for this 11th June. Have a happy life and try to be a good wife okay. Last but not least, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH <3 <3
I totally will be a crazy person if i wouldn't able to arrange my time.
Can you imagine me, doing this kind of job. I need to sacrifice TIME mostly. I don't watch Korean drama after all and i barely read magazine. I was keep busy-ing live in my own world.
My own world (Fuckin' crazyyy)
Do you know i can create and live in my own world. I can imagine things which can control my emotion too? Haha..crazy me! I've been thinking lately and i think this is the time to get it serious. I'm not going to realize it, but FORGET it. My world with that person. That person who can make me feel like the world is mine. I think i should learn to accept. Learn to let go. YES. LET GO. I believe there is something that God want us to learn behind every single things happened. Isn't it?
So,
First of all,
things that i've left such a long time, MAKE UP!
hahaha...i miss my eyeliner. I bought lot of them you know! From pencil to liquid. Haaa...i miss them! Tomorrow i'm going to accompany my sis going to buy her things, so watch out eyes! i'm gonna make you RAWR!!!!!!!!
Em, one more thing, should i set a diet? I desire to wear some nice cloth. Hurm, let see.. my new look i guess??? ahaha! And i want to buy nice keychain from ROXY. I saw it several months ago and still didn't get it. And the handbag too. It's too coooool! Eh eh! Bukan! I want NOSE bag. It is sooo classiccc... I want more!!!!
I don't know why i keep see him in every second. Is this the feeling of love? of loneliness or missing? God, could you please guide me to the truth. If he is mine, show the way. And if it not, could you please give me the strength. I'm really tired with this nonsense feeling.
If only i can choose my career, i will definitely choosing to be
1) A tauke
2) A musician.
Why?
I don't have to follow people words. Where you need to do it either you want it, or you hate it. God, i am really going to have a good patience for waiting the good job. I don't say that i hate all this thing, but in some circumstances, i don't have a chance to throw out my idea or thought. For almost 1 year, i do understand why people cant take this anymore. I am sure. Yes, i did.
Makan hati?
That's the best thing i can describe it.
Sometimes, whenever i feel bad, I just want to talk with someone. "HE" is the most person i think, but you know what people, you can differ somebody you love with your good friends. You don't need to tell from a to z. Your friends was like a part of yourself. They know you well. I dedicated this post to part of my life
Haha, guys! I lied! i still can't forget him. haha. But i've been in some controlled circumstances la. i did remember his face sometimes.
okla, now we go to our topic today which issssss -----
SPECTACLES!!
i loveeee spectacles, but you know what. I dont like to wear it. I wish to have one but then im gonna think, "and what the hell im wearing this things?". Haaa...
People might think i got a boyfie, he love me, and i love him. No! I don't have anything. But i don't know why i keep assume that my heart was just for him. I can't stop thinking about him every single minute. And do you think how hurt it is?
Do you know that how much that you love the person, you need to remember how happy they are on the other side? So, just set your mind now, love is not just he/she sitting beside you. Love can be so precious when they can smile and feel happy every single moment. You don't have to feel desperate or what. The time will come to you. God already arranged our future. We just need to pray for good things. Shouldn't we?
Thank god i still have pretty and kind mom, i borrowed her money to pay this line. Argh, talking about berokband really make me sick. So, i just wrap up my life through these several weeks.
Nothing (again) great happened recently. I just focus on my work. We have huge project coming up. My big boss always remind me about the project costing but i will try my best, insyaAllah. And talking about works will never have the end. I just disappointed with some people around me who keep pointing fingers to me and they might didn't realize how bad they are. Can you imagine when you feel comfortable, and you think he/she will be your side, keep talking that you are a lazy person instead of trying to make us calm? I really don't get it. I admit that i have bunch of works need to settle down and submit, but i just ignore it. You know what, i did that because of you! Oh shit. I'm done talking about this! :'(
What are you gonna do if you start to love someone until you can't stop thinking about her/him more than you think about yourself? Are you going to tell everyone that you love that person? Are you going to tell the person that you secretly admire him/her? Are you going to just stand a side and let the feeling blend yourself?
And what are you going to do if someone that you love, is not liked by everyone? Are you going to hate him/her too? What if you feel like the person keep an eyes on you and you know it well?
I keep deleting this post actually. I don't know what i am going to write. But i just got the idea right now. Um, the clock going tick to 11.39pm and i just arrived home safely. Yeah, i went out with my mom, sis and nieces. We went for makan-makan at Padi. Located in Alor Akar, Kuantan and opposite of Jabatan Ukur. Don't ask me where it is. Come to Kuantan, then i'll show you! :) I want to put the map, but the line fuckin' slow. So, forget it.
I met old friend on last Friday. It was awesome. Can you imagine, we met after 4 years, and she's still the same. And a bit kurus than before. Huh~ very different with me lah--
She is Suhana a.k.a Kak Sue. She is the most terhutang-budi-person when i'm in matriculation. She help me in such many ways. I don't know how i am going to say about her, but there is one word suit with. Lovely and crazy. We keep thinking the same thing! Thats why i love her.
Kak sue is the one who wearing brown tudung okayy
Here's the picture. Kak Sue is having her soup. Thanks a lot Kak Sue, spent some time with me. Hehe. I'm sorry that i have to go earlier.
Kak Sue wif her boyfie.
Kak Sue went to Kuantan because she wanna meet her boyfie. So besides that, she want to meet me. Alhamdulillah she is still remember me. Hehe. And i forgot his bf's name. What a coincidence! He's working at Pelabuhan Kuantan only! Haha, i guess people keep meeting with each other without realize how close we are.
When i see this picture again, i am disappointed with my own face. Looks kind a oily. Haha, i remember that day i just go out like that. I don't wear make-up these days. I just kind of lazy and try not to tampal2 the compact powder. (Actually,i am trying to look natural. Hahahaha)
I don't know how to say this. I AM REALLY-REALLY HAPPY!!
This posing quite gediks. Haha. I don't care. I am Ain. I don't care people talks.
Hey, i forgot to tell you guys. I just being polka-dot-addicted.