#05

 My heart filled with angry this morning. I just dont know why it keep pulling me out these days. Sometime, i just cant bare small or simple mistake. Where sometime, it comes from me, myself. Yeah, some time also, i asked myself, " Are u crazy or somethin'?. Or MAYBE, i've ignored some of religion needs. Where you need to always speak humble and act simple. Or maybe you shouldnt care about people matter or talking bad behind him/her. Or maybe, you should treat your parents well.

I just dont know what happened to me.

 dont-know person, 

Ain.  

#04

I've saw a man who excited about his job, sacrifice all the pain he's feeling in order to make sure all the process going well. Im amazed. But some matter turned weird. When he was really-really sick, people acted like nothing bad happened. I just --dont like with that kind of behaviour.

Hey, im sitting in front of my friend's lappy rite now. i like his keypad. Smooth. Not like mine, making sound "pap pap pap". Huh~

I just wondering why i keep thinking bout dressing nowadays. Am i fashionista or somethin'? I love to try new style of hijab but a bit scared with people comment. But, who cares? Its me wearing the hijab, not yours! Rite? 

The payoff going out tomorrow, but im worried. Sigh

Lots of love,

ain

#03

Im not in mood rite now. Im just feel lonely. i dont know.

Many things happened recently where it just a small matter but i took it seriously. i know, yeah, thats CHILDISH. i've tried to put it side but i cant help myself.

Hoping tomorrow better than today. Amin.

#02

Im so weak today. I dont know. I've tried to encourage myself, trying to stop listening ppl making jokes on me (some kind of irritating jokes), huh~ but i cannot help myself crying inside. I feel so down and i just need besties. I need ppl who keep encourage me, always be with me when i want to burst all the wary. 

Rita

Sal

imah

cah

acik

aiza

sairah

zira

aza

wanie

hani

linda

miza

zuha

and etc.

Some time, i tried to put a smile, but i think ppl know that is not real me. For those who keep seeing me happy around, they realized, and asking me. I dont know. Im not happy these days. 

I think im gonna buy Diana end of month. Smena quite fragile, and nikon fg --- i dont what happened with it. I keep thinking i just need a new hobby or interest. I want to be "Old-Ain" (not OLD i mean,). Who keep crazy on lomo and pictures. Who not cares bout people talks. Who are quite confident with herself. 

Where she is?

PLEASE HELP ME FIND HER.

Ain.

#01

I dont like column title upthere - where you need to put it first before any post coz im too lazy thinking bout the 1st sentence.

So i just put it num 01. No worries guys. It didnt do anything to you. I guess i want to keep updating blog lately. Maybe, i've inspired from somewhere and i wanna share with you. This morning i've watched Selamat Pagi Malaysia and they invited a person whom famous with his article - Butterfly something---something---. And I wanna know more about him. His smile was innocent. I dont think he's an ordinary person. Somethin' fishy. I think his name is Zaid Mohamad.  Huhu. If you know him, roger me ok!

Its been a long time i didnt take personal photo until today. Check this out, annoying rite? But i like it. Heheheheheheh...

Me, ngeh3

 

PROMISE

I spoke with someone just now 

And i remember that i promise him something.

And to the bestie too. Hurm, i wonder im lack of money because the promise that i forgot to realize to. I have to settle it down by end of month. *berkobar-kobar*

Oh! i think im trending now (is it twitter or somethin'??) at my workplace. Guess what, people keep asking whoever (male) going out with me. Ha~ what a sigh. I think i should stop going out. They even called "SCANDAL". God, i dont have any other friends here. Uwe (mom) went to rumah kak min, and i just meet ayoh after 10 pm. What a lonely week.

I keep thinking what is the best stuff to do. Playing guitar? I dont have that one *regret for selling it*. Book? Forget it. I dont have the mood. Cleo and Cosmopolitan already blanket with dust. Blanket ke? Hua3. 

Last but not least, i dont have the passion to do my job lately. i dont know. i just DONT KNOW. But i keep remember my sis said

"Remind the positive thing about your work. It will help you out"

I guess we should agree rite?

Okla, since it 11.00pm already, i need to go to bed and get a good rest.

Hey, you too!

Nite, 

Ain 

It was a funny moment

Hi sweetie,

how are you?

Again and again i really hope you dear fine through all day. This month might be a worse month for me. With the incoming works, sometimes i cant bear the difficulties. But i did take a deep breath to swap it, disappear with all worries. Some people "mental" with their behavior, but me, trying to keep the patience. You just need to bear until 5-10 seconds, and then they will shut their mouth out. And if you think that you are the worst or "malang malah sial", you are totally wrong.

"mental" is a word that i used for crazy or "gila" okay.

Hey, i forgot to tell you.

I just went back from works. And guess what, some people gossiping me with this dude. Haha funny but yes, they all just office-mate-bestie. I like to hangout with some people that are easy going. Free to hear people talks. Meaning or meaningless. Im alone here. I miss all the besties. This year might be "HA-PADAN-MUKA-TINGGAL-SORANG Year". Yup, this is no joke. All the dekat-dekat bestie gone for their own career.

Imah, a teacher, went to Johor.

Sairah, going to Negeri Sembilan. Chasing for cool career, Mak Bidan.

Cah, going to move out and stay in clinic's quarters.
Huh, when im going to get gov position one????

Huh~ (i believe this is sigh post)
Ain.
Kui3

Cah's engagement

Tahniah Cah!!

Wee...

 My good-good-but-crazy bestie, cah has done her engagement today smoothly. She looked extremely lovely and behave. Behave? Bolehhhh la. And im really happy for you cah. Please have a good life instead of good financial. Am i rite? But financial damn important oso!!

okla, this is the picture where we having fun after cah sarung cincin.And cah, your food damn delicious. Nasi apa hah? Bukhari ke? Aku bantai makan 2 pinggan. Hehe.

sedikit serious posing

ini gila punya posing

Even though freakin' jealous with you, and others who already be a wife, deep~~~~~ inside my heart, nak rasa jugakkkk!

Tapi, saya masih muda. masih masih masih muda. hehe. I've got a bunch of things need to accomplish, need to learn and to gain.

Hehe,

Ain.