#69

Funny when it comes to old memories. Memories that keeping my heart and mind fluctuated. 

Funny when I thought he is the one for me.

Funny I thought that we gonna live together, like ever after.

Funny when I remember that he said to me, that he loves me thousand times then one day he stopped saying that.

Funny when I remember, that I cried almost everyday after he treat me like I'm nobody.

Funny when I remember I've done every single thing to make him happy, and I got nothing in reply. 

Funny when I remember I said, we should make this clear and it END.

Funny when I thought I'm about to forget things easily, but instead not.

And it's not funny, I forgive all the things he did to me.

Allah, thank you :-) For giving me strengths. 

#68

'Katakanlah (Muhammad), "Wahai hamba-hamba-Ku yang beriman! 
Bertakwalah kepada Tuhanmu." Bagi orang-orang yang berbuat baik di dunia ini 
akan memperoleh kebaikan. Dan bumi itu luas. Hanya orang-orang yang 
bersabarlah yang disempurnakan pahalanya tanpa batas.' 
(QS. Az-Zumar : 10)

#67

Being recovered from terrible things was the greatest moment ever in my life. A moment that made me believe the world doesn't end yet and it's just about to start.  This is a point that triggered me to change better. I still have a long way to go but I hope and pray to Allah to lend me more time to repent all the sins. Allah showed me a right way which I've forgotten.

"Allah does not impose upon any soul a duty but to the extent of its ability."

 (Al-Baqarah: 286)

#66

She thinks she's all alone 
And all her hopes are gone 
And so I wrote this song 
So she can move alone. 

But things work bad 
She was in despair 
Her things work bad
And you were not everything 

But things work bad 
She came up for air 
She said a little prayer, she found herself 

Yeah, she's got light in her face
She don't need no rescue and she's okay.
Yeah, she's got a laugh in her face
She don't need no rescue and she's okay.
No SOS me then rescue when she's finally there
No SOS me then rescue when she's finally there, yeah
She's got a laugh in her face, 
She don't need no rescue and she's okay 

She look into the sky 
And all her tars are dry 
She kiss her fears goodbye
She's gonna be alright. 

But things work bad 
It was .. in repair
She was scared, she couldn't handle it. 
The things were bad, but now she's glad
Can't you tell, she's walking on air?

Yeah, she's got light in her face
She don't need no rescue and she's okay.
Yeah, she's got a laugh in her face
She don't need no rescue and she's okay.
No SOS me then rescue when she's finally there
No SOS me then rescue when she's finally there, yeah
She's got a laugh in her face, 
She don't need no rescue and she's okay 

That girl is you yeah and that girl is me 
That girl is strong girl and don't let you see
That girl is you yeah and that girl is me 
That girl is strong girl and don't let you see

Rescue by Yuna

(Lyrics took somewhere from internet)

#65

Assalamualaikum everyone. 

Hoping every each you are in the pink of health. It's still in Syawal, so I wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir Batin.

I believe this post is very emotional for me. 

The thing that makes me afraid finally happens. 
The thing that I always wanted to forget and try to fix it thousand times.

Just a normal day, where I always never forget to tell him that I love him, finally ruins everything. 
I have no idea where my courage came from, but I finally said " Can we split? Can we have our own life? I love you but it seems you not giving the same reaction recently. I mean not recently, a few months I believe."

And I am not surprised, he agreed. As he wanted, maybe.

Honestly, deep down inside my tiny heart, I'm asking myself. Like a thousand times. 
Again.
Thousand times.

"I've never stopped loving you."
"I've never doubted loving you."
"I've never agreed that people talking bad things about you."

But, it's starting to happen when you said that you didn't know if it's love.

So what's all this about?

Allah, is this a sign from you?

Or maybe, God wants me to remember that loving human is not lasting to the end.
He wants me to keep loving Him.
Allah, I'm so sorry. I will never do it again. InsyaAllah.
Maybe this whole thing triggered me to change better.
:-) Thank you Allah, syukur.

#64

Assalamualaikum and happy fasting everyone.

Hah.. I miss this little column where I can express my thought and feelings. Since I gave to nephew my precious Acer laptop, I am not able to update any single post and I just need to do it at the office. 

It's been 2 weeks ++ I've came back from a long holiday. As I promise you, I took lots of pictures and uploaded it on Facebook. Different culture, foods and people really blown me about the greatness of Allah's creation. I've spent my time wisely there where we saw beautiful sceneries which differently from here. Anyway, I still love Malaysia too much. The weather was so cold and I'm kinda "warm person", so a Lil bit hard to adapt the weather. The food especially, its good and mostly tasted sour and spicy.  You know it's so much to tell of but I believe the pictures will explain.

So, this month is the greatest month which is Ramadhan and I wish to complete doing Tarawikh everyday which I didn't for several years. I feel blessed because I'm able to celebrate with whole members except one. I hope he's doing fine. And the good thing is, we are going to celebrate it in Kelantan. Yippee! 

#63

Assalamualaikum everyone!

OMG I'm just so excited because there are just 2 weeks before I go to Korea (my dream for years back then). Thanks to my precious sister because supporting all the expenses (Yayy!!!). I'm seriously not able to do my works and stuff calmly because still counting. I can't wait to try the food, taking so many pictures (I swear and its spring now!!!!!!) and having fun there! I will update the blog soon after I have the trip. Wish all the best for me! Adios!

Love,

Ain

#62

So happy finally i successfully downloaded blogspot app into my phone. Hello readers!!!!!

#61

Assalamualaikum :-)

Gosh its been awhile i didn't made up a post or share something on this blog.

Life is just a ---- (fingers tapping, thinking and doesn't know what to mumble about)

Okay, actually its about love (Love is not a boring topic right?). So sometimes i just decided to forget about love, be the right person again and continue this life happier and even merrier myself. I'd keep questioning myself, am i right on doing this way or not. Awhile ago, i hardly to believe that destiny can't change what will going to happen to us instead of We Can Change What We Gonna Be. Suddenly, i realized when it comes to love thing, destiny comes first in place. Maybe we should just follow the rules and hoping we ended up with good things. Amin.

You love him, and he loves you too. But does it mean that you both going to have a happy life together? No one else know the better except Allah. If you really honest, and want a good ending with him, you should putting more effort on the relationship. Try to understand both situation and don't confront each problem. 

:'(

#60

 Vintage Camera for SALE !! 

So guys, I'm about to let go my precious Nikon FG which I bought from my Lomo friend. 

The reason is it's so hurtful to see my old camera just hiding in the closet and might be good to have someone who can take care it well. I bought it about 2 years ago with RM250 for the body and RM100 for the lens.

Condition

I can rate it as 7/10 which the body and lens still pretty well except for tiny little scratch before passed to my hand. But still it remained in good condition. The camera using 35mm film if you going to use it (My advice, check the internal condition first with camera repair man) or you want to put it as your own decoration / collection.

Price

The camera comes with lens and lens cap which cost RM100.00 including postage. I believe you rarely found this price. You can contact me by asking me at the comment box or email me directly at nurulain@rwna.com.my

Accessories

For the camera strap, you can get it any of the camera shop, blogs or facebook. I did buy my rainbow camera strap here, LOMOCREWZ like the picture below;

So what are you waiting for? Grab it now!!