#70

Hi everyone! Yess i'm back! (Not sure how long this time)

Yeap, i'm the new person right now. I've already turned to 28 last June 24 and i know i havent write anything since 2013 (wow, that long?). And Alhamdulillah i feel blessed with my life, work (sometimes not) and still, finding true love, lol.

So whats new in you guys life right now?

I got new roles at work but unluckily the salary wasnt raised up. Haha its ok. So i'm handling with so many things like hey what do you need at staff house?, hey you need to help me complete this thing!, hey i need you to go there immediately!, etc. I can get heart attack believe me :'( That all thing i need to handle mostly everyday and make sure it went well but i learnt something from this. You cannot expect you will receive as much as you give. After been year drown in this type of work, i feel strong for no reason. Like yeah, sometimes i dont care if they treat me, hurt me or what, i just need to do my work until 5.30. You know at the end of the day, what is the last thing you gonna feel? You gonna be blessed :-) because you just realized you able to went through it.

P/s: i put my latest pictures so that u can see im fat right now. Haha

Love,
A

#69

Funny when it comes to old memories. Memories that keeping my heart and mind fluctuated. 

Funny when I thought he is the one for me.

Funny I thought that we gonna live together, like ever after.

Funny when I remember that he said to me, that he loves me thousand times then one day he stopped saying that.

Funny when I remember, that I cried almost everyday after he treat me like I'm nobody.

Funny when I remember I've done every single thing to make him happy, and I got nothing in reply. 

Funny when I remember I said, we should make this clear and it END.

Funny when I thought I'm about to forget things easily, but instead not.

And it's not funny, I forgive all the things he did to me.

Allah, thank you :-) For giving me strengths. 

#68

'Katakanlah (Muhammad), "Wahai hamba-hamba-Ku yang beriman! 
Bertakwalah kepada Tuhanmu." Bagi orang-orang yang berbuat baik di dunia ini 
akan memperoleh kebaikan. Dan bumi itu luas. Hanya orang-orang yang 
bersabarlah yang disempurnakan pahalanya tanpa batas.' 
(QS. Az-Zumar : 10)

#67

Being recovered from terrible things was the greatest moment ever in my life. A moment that made me believe the world doesn't end yet and it's just about to start.  This is a point that triggered me to change better. I still have a long way to go but I hope and pray to Allah to lend me more time to repent all the sins. Allah showed me a right way which I've forgotten.

"Allah does not impose upon any soul a duty but to the extent of its ability."

 (Al-Baqarah: 286)

#66

She thinks she's all alone 
And all her hopes are gone 
And so I wrote this song 
So she can move alone. 

But things work bad 
She was in despair 
Her things work bad
And you were not everything 

But things work bad 
She came up for air 
She said a little prayer, she found herself 

Yeah, she's got light in her face
She don't need no rescue and she's okay.
Yeah, she's got a laugh in her face
She don't need no rescue and she's okay.
No SOS me then rescue when she's finally there
No SOS me then rescue when she's finally there, yeah
She's got a laugh in her face, 
She don't need no rescue and she's okay 

She look into the sky 
And all her tars are dry 
She kiss her fears goodbye
She's gonna be alright. 

But things work bad 
It was .. in repair
She was scared, she couldn't handle it. 
The things were bad, but now she's glad
Can't you tell, she's walking on air?

Yeah, she's got light in her face
She don't need no rescue and she's okay.
Yeah, she's got a laugh in her face
She don't need no rescue and she's okay.
No SOS me then rescue when she's finally there
No SOS me then rescue when she's finally there, yeah
She's got a laugh in her face, 
She don't need no rescue and she's okay 

That girl is you yeah and that girl is me 
That girl is strong girl and don't let you see
That girl is you yeah and that girl is me 
That girl is strong girl and don't let you see

Rescue by Yuna

(Lyrics took somewhere from internet)

#65

Assalamualaikum everyone. 

Hoping every each you are in the pink of health. It's still in Syawal, so I wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir Batin.

I believe this post is very emotional for me. 

The thing that makes me afraid finally happens. 
The thing that I always wanted to forget and try to fix it thousand times.

Just a normal day, where I always never forget to tell him that I love him, finally ruins everything. 
I have no idea where my courage came from, but I finally said " Can we split? Can we have our own life? I love you but it seems you not giving the same reaction recently. I mean not recently, a few months I believe."

And I am not surprised, he agreed. As he wanted, maybe.

Honestly, deep down inside my tiny heart, I'm asking myself. Like a thousand times. 
Again.
Thousand times.

"I've never stopped loving you."
"I've never doubted loving you."
"I've never agreed that people talking bad things about you."

But, it's starting to happen when you said that you didn't know if it's love.

So what's all this about?

Allah, is this a sign from you?

Or maybe, God wants me to remember that loving human is not lasting to the end.
He wants me to keep loving Him.
Allah, I'm so sorry. I will never do it again. InsyaAllah.
Maybe this whole thing triggered me to change better.
:-) Thank you Allah, syukur.

#64

Assalamualaikum and happy fasting everyone.

Hah.. I miss this little column where I can express my thought and feelings. Since I gave to nephew my precious Acer laptop, I am not able to update any single post and I just need to do it at the office. 

It's been 2 weeks ++ I've came back from a long holiday. As I promise you, I took lots of pictures and uploaded it on Facebook. Different culture, foods and people really blown me about the greatness of Allah's creation. I've spent my time wisely there where we saw beautiful sceneries which differently from here. Anyway, I still love Malaysia too much. The weather was so cold and I'm kinda "warm person", so a Lil bit hard to adapt the weather. The food especially, its good and mostly tasted sour and spicy.  You know it's so much to tell of but I believe the pictures will explain.

So, this month is the greatest month which is Ramadhan and I wish to complete doing Tarawikh everyday which I didn't for several years. I feel blessed because I'm able to celebrate with whole members except one. I hope he's doing fine. And the good thing is, we are going to celebrate it in Kelantan. Yippee! 

#63

Assalamualaikum everyone!

OMG I'm just so excited because there are just 2 weeks before I go to Korea (my dream for years back then). Thanks to my precious sister because supporting all the expenses (Yayy!!!). I'm seriously not able to do my works and stuff calmly because still counting. I can't wait to try the food, taking so many pictures (I swear and its spring now!!!!!!) and having fun there! I will update the blog soon after I have the trip. Wish all the best for me! Adios!

Love,

Ain

#62

So happy finally i successfully downloaded blogspot app into my phone. Hello readers!!!!!

#61

Assalamualaikum :-)

Gosh its been awhile i didn't made up a post or share something on this blog.

Life is just a ---- (fingers tapping, thinking and doesn't know what to mumble about)

Okay, actually its about love (Love is not a boring topic right?). So sometimes i just decided to forget about love, be the right person again and continue this life happier and even merrier myself. I'd keep questioning myself, am i right on doing this way or not. Awhile ago, i hardly to believe that destiny can't change what will going to happen to us instead of We Can Change What We Gonna Be. Suddenly, i realized when it comes to love thing, destiny comes first in place. Maybe we should just follow the rules and hoping we ended up with good things. Amin.

You love him, and he loves you too. But does it mean that you both going to have a happy life together? No one else know the better except Allah. If you really honest, and want a good ending with him, you should putting more effort on the relationship. Try to understand both situation and don't confront each problem. 

:'(

#60

 Vintage Camera for SALE !! 

So guys, I'm about to let go my precious Nikon FG which I bought from my Lomo friend. 

The reason is it's so hurtful to see my old camera just hiding in the closet and might be good to have someone who can take care it well. I bought it about 2 years ago with RM250 for the body and RM100 for the lens.

Condition

I can rate it as 7/10 which the body and lens still pretty well except for tiny little scratch before passed to my hand. But still it remained in good condition. The camera using 35mm film if you going to use it (My advice, check the internal condition first with camera repair man) or you want to put it as your own decoration / collection.

Price

The camera comes with lens and lens cap which cost RM100.00 including postage. I believe you rarely found this price. You can contact me by asking me at the comment box or email me directly at nurulain@rwna.com.my

Accessories

For the camera strap, you can get it any of the camera shop, blogs or facebook. I did buy my rainbow camera strap here, LOMOCREWZ like the picture below;

So what are you waiting for? Grab it now!!

#59

Assalamualaikum. 

I think a lil bit too long I didn't write anything here. Just a few pictures back then, right? Nothing great happens to me recently except for best friend's wedding, Imah. I and Imah been friends since primary school. I just knew her but did not really close. As fas I knew, Imah was popular as "Clever Girl" and surrounded by "Clever-Girl-Group" *hehe! On that time lah!*

So, the relationship really began when we entered the secondary school. We befriend in a group and started to be really close when we stayed in the same dorm, sleeping beside each other when we were in Form 3. Imah was my best friend because she never mad at me, neither scolding me. I still remember when I'm hungry, she told me to eat her food that she brought for herself. We all friends, believe, that Imah are going to be a teacher because she said so for millions and she has a great talent / ability since years ago.

And finally Imah made it into reality. Cikgu Hasyimah. That is the name that her students called her. The name that she proud of. 

Imah, I knew that our relationship will not going to be the same when you married but I do believe this is not the end. I love so much, and thanks to Allah sending you beside me in the process I'm learning to be a real person. Congratulations for your wedding :-)

#58

Let the picture talks.

#57

Umair, mak su ain put our picture here. So cute right. Maksu ain loves you soo much <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">

#56

There was a day in my life no matter once a month, twice a week or many times, I've been thinking why my life turned like this. Why I should live in a small workplace instead of a big establish company. Why my salary getting bigger slowly instead of other people who already in a luxury level. Why I should work so hardly even I didn't get anything in return. Why I should serve loyally to those who not even appreciate what I've been doing. But, at the end of the day, life needs to go on.

#55

Kebaya : Butik KP
Cotton Tudung : Tudung Shop KP
Skirt : FYI (present from love :D)

#54

Writing this post while having a cake on my lunch hour. Its great to eat something expensive and of course, when its is a free / given by someone. 

So, life been fluctuated recently. Works getting crazier, life going messy-ier & so do love. 

I do love someone which i believe he might be my other half. But the question is, does he / she love you too?    

From we started calling each other, LOVE, i always dream something bigger, great and you know what i meant, creating a family.

But for some kind of person like him, when they've got something bigger, they will be sick to have something more and more to achieve. But for someone like me, i am looking for someone to spend his time with me, helping me to realize my dream.

I believe at the end of the day, one person that will always with you is YOURSELF and Allah s.w.t. So what you need is don't forget about what you have and always be proud of it. Pray to Allah that He will send someone that really into you, appreciate you and wanna spend life together. Lets :')

#53

So this time was like 10th time i tried to figure out what to be typed & shared on my blog. Rather than let it empty for several month, i guess. I just need a new laptop for myself. But the BIG problem is, I love the hot & expensive one, like apple. Hahaha! I wish i can get it one *forgot about how many ptptn's fee that she's haven't paid & the interest keep increasing*. Honestly, i am really lost myself now. I just focused on my work, family and him until i've forgot that i have myself to take care off. So much things to be settle off and i hope at the end of the day, maybe i can have one or two days leave to spend precious time at Genting or Legoland. Sort of. So, lets settle it down and have some reward later! :D

#52

So i went to shopping mall with my sister and her two daughters buying their baju raya. Ha *sigh* i wish i can be kids again so that i don't have to use my own money to buy clothes. So while my sisters and her kids finding & hunting the clothes, i went to the lady's section and found this one! Cantik isn't? Oh i wish i can have this! 

It is a normal thing, when we don't have enough money, we should buy things that we really need and ignore our desire. Haaaa..next time maybe!

Much love,

Ain

#51

#Notes on June, 27th

I'm so sorry about what I said to you last night. But I did apologize, and I try to make us like before.

So I woke up today, thinking about preparing morning breakfast for you. Making with such blossom love and feeling, I sacrifice my time to come a little bit late to the office. And I thought you were waiting for me. But you refused to eat seems you are saying that you saving for lunch.

And when we are having our lunch, I give the sandwich to you and you said 

"Can you eat for me?, I don't want to eat it." 

Thanks. 

I think I don't love you like before anymore.

Ain.