#70

Hi everyone! Yess i'm back! (Not sure how long this time)

Yeap, i'm the new person right now. I've already turned to 28 last June 24 and i know i havent write anything since 2013 (wow, that long?). And Alhamdulillah i feel blessed with my life, work (sometimes not) and still, finding true love, lol.

So whats new in you guys life right now?

I got new roles at work but unluckily the salary wasnt raised up. Haha its ok. So i'm handling with so many things like hey what do you need at staff house?, hey you need to help me complete this thing!, hey i need you to go there immediately!, etc. I can get heart attack believe me :'( That all thing i need to handle mostly everyday and make sure it went well but i learnt something from this. You cannot expect you will receive as much as you give. After been year drown in this type of work, i feel strong for no reason. Like yeah, sometimes i dont care if they treat me, hurt me or what, i just need to do my work until 5.30. You know at the end of the day, what is the last thing you gonna feel? You gonna be blessed :-) because you just realized you able to went through it.

P/s: i put my latest pictures so that u can see im fat right now. Haha

Love,
A

#69

Funny when it comes to old memories. Memories that keeping my heart and mind fluctuated. 

Funny when I thought he is the one for me.

Funny I thought that we gonna live together, like ever after.

Funny when I remember that he said to me, that he loves me thousand times then one day he stopped saying that.

Funny when I remember, that I cried almost everyday after he treat me like I'm nobody.

Funny when I remember I've done every single thing to make him happy, and I got nothing in reply. 

Funny when I remember I said, we should make this clear and it END.

Funny when I thought I'm about to forget things easily, but instead not.

And it's not funny, I forgive all the things he did to me.

Allah, thank you :-) For giving me strengths. 

#68

'Katakanlah (Muhammad), "Wahai hamba-hamba-Ku yang beriman! 
Bertakwalah kepada Tuhanmu." Bagi orang-orang yang berbuat baik di dunia ini 
akan memperoleh kebaikan. Dan bumi itu luas. Hanya orang-orang yang 
bersabarlah yang disempurnakan pahalanya tanpa batas.' 
(QS. Az-Zumar : 10)

#67

Being recovered from terrible things was the greatest moment ever in my life. A moment that made me believe the world doesn't end yet and it's just about to start.  This is a point that triggered me to change better. I still have a long way to go but I hope and pray to Allah to lend me more time to repent all the sins. Allah showed me a right way which I've forgotten.

"Allah does not impose upon any soul a duty but to the extent of its ability."

 (Al-Baqarah: 286)

#66

She thinks she's all alone 
And all her hopes are gone 
And so I wrote this song 
So she can move alone. 

But things work bad 
She was in despair 
Her things work bad
And you were not everything 

But things work bad 
She came up for air 
She said a little prayer, she found herself 

Yeah, she's got light in her face
She don't need no rescue and she's okay.
Yeah, she's got a laugh in her face
She don't need no rescue and she's okay.
No SOS me then rescue when she's finally there
No SOS me then rescue when she's finally there, yeah
She's got a laugh in her face, 
She don't need no rescue and she's okay 

She look into the sky 
And all her tars are dry 
She kiss her fears goodbye
She's gonna be alright. 

But things work bad 
It was .. in repair
She was scared, she couldn't handle it. 
The things were bad, but now she's glad
Can't you tell, she's walking on air?

Yeah, she's got light in her face
She don't need no rescue and she's okay.
Yeah, she's got a laugh in her face
She don't need no rescue and she's okay.
No SOS me then rescue when she's finally there
No SOS me then rescue when she's finally there, yeah
She's got a laugh in her face, 
She don't need no rescue and she's okay 

That girl is you yeah and that girl is me 
That girl is strong girl and don't let you see
That girl is you yeah and that girl is me 
That girl is strong girl and don't let you see

Rescue by Yuna

(Lyrics took somewhere from internet)

#65

Assalamualaikum everyone. 

Hoping every each you are in the pink of health. It's still in Syawal, so I wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir Batin.

I believe this post is very emotional for me. 

The thing that makes me afraid finally happens. 
The thing that I always wanted to forget and try to fix it thousand times.

Just a normal day, where I always never forget to tell him that I love him, finally ruins everything. 
I have no idea where my courage came from, but I finally said " Can we split? Can we have our own life? I love you but it seems you not giving the same reaction recently. I mean not recently, a few months I believe."

And I am not surprised, he agreed. As he wanted, maybe.

Honestly, deep down inside my tiny heart, I'm asking myself. Like a thousand times. 
Again.
Thousand times.

"I've never stopped loving you."
"I've never doubted loving you."
"I've never agreed that people talking bad things about you."

But, it's starting to happen when you said that you didn't know if it's love.

So what's all this about?

Allah, is this a sign from you?

Or maybe, God wants me to remember that loving human is not lasting to the end.
He wants me to keep loving Him.
Allah, I'm so sorry. I will never do it again. InsyaAllah.
Maybe this whole thing triggered me to change better.
:-) Thank you Allah, syukur.

#64

Assalamualaikum and happy fasting everyone.

Hah.. I miss this little column where I can express my thought and feelings. Since I gave to nephew my precious Acer laptop, I am not able to update any single post and I just need to do it at the office. 

It's been 2 weeks ++ I've came back from a long holiday. As I promise you, I took lots of pictures and uploaded it on Facebook. Different culture, foods and people really blown me about the greatness of Allah's creation. I've spent my time wisely there where we saw beautiful sceneries which differently from here. Anyway, I still love Malaysia too much. The weather was so cold and I'm kinda "warm person", so a Lil bit hard to adapt the weather. The food especially, its good and mostly tasted sour and spicy.  You know it's so much to tell of but I believe the pictures will explain.

So, this month is the greatest month which is Ramadhan and I wish to complete doing Tarawikh everyday which I didn't for several years. I feel blessed because I'm able to celebrate with whole members except one. I hope he's doing fine. And the good thing is, we are going to celebrate it in Kelantan. Yippee!